The feet again. Because I have been thinking a lot about where I am going. On Monday it will be back to Vancouver for 3 weeks. I can buy new shoes. The ones in this picture were bought right before coming to Japan. Both have toe area holes and an elastic in one has snapped so lately they have stayed at home but I don’t think I will throw them out. They were (are) my Japan shoes.

I came here a year ago today (if I remember correctly). It is a little scary. I am happy about the ways I have grown and what I have learned but I have also realized about 30% of my adultness to bring me to a current total of about 55%. All rough calculations of course. Based on an average number of sighs in response to things people younger than me do per week.

Then there are ways in which I have not changed and vicious circles I still walk. They’ve been heavily on the mind in these past months. Sometimes I have felt like I might explode. And maybe I thought that by thinking about it, and analyzing what I do - I can find a solution and change myself and make it better.

On the other hand. Maybe there is no real problem besides me declaring problems.

Today I am baffled by what the mind can up.