I am sitting here staring at my thesis. Ok maybe not at this moment right now I am staring at Word Press software but either way I want to cry. I genuinely want to work on my thesis, want to try. But I don’t know what to do. I will try to write something and then feel like there are all these things I don’t know that I need to know to write. So I will stop and half search for them but feel like the search could go on forever. And then I will sleep and the next day I won’t have time to get back. And then the next day I will forget where I was. How do I do this? My head hurts. My stomach hurts. But I really really need to get this done.

AND when I do try to figure out where I am at I read what I wrote and it seems utter crap. How am I going to do this?