Archive for March, 2008
Hey hey. I feel a bit meek writing. Like I was supposed to call a few weeks ago and didn’t. Then I write about not writing and that annoys me but I guess it must be done. So it’s done…let’s move on.
At the end of February I finally became a yellow belt. It’s not my favourite colour and I feel quite motivated to move to the next levels – orange, and then green. Green I like a lot. I foresee a plateau at green.
That was the excitement last weekend. This weekend I signed up for tournament kumite in the women’s white / yellow belt division and received first place!!…being the only one registered in the division. They announced it and everything which was a little strange. I did nothing.
Luckily three other women were signed up in the orange / green division and they let me compete with them. And I won second place!!
It was actually a very interesting experience. When you see the people you will be up against you can’t help but size them up and even though you probably shouldn’t, you often end up making some internal decision on whether you will win or lose. I had decided that I would be able to win against my first opponent. I did. Before that the other two women fought and I paid attention to the winner – she was really good. She used kicks a lot and I wasn’t quite at that level yet. I decided that if we fought, she would win.
I made myself right. Not “I was right” but I made myself right. I still tried. It was hard and at one point I felt soooo tired. I would be happy with second place…why don’t I stop trying? But that would be a waste of those 2 minutes that I had waited all day for. So I kept trying but with the determination of someone who would be happy with second place.
Afterwards a black belt who teaches us sometimes congratulated me and said I did a good job. He agreed that she was very good but added “you also could have won”. He was not telling me that I should have done better. I think he said this because he knew what I realized once the fight was over. I got second place because that’s what I felt happy with. But it wouldn’t have been impossible for me to win a match with this girl. Still…preferring silver over gold, I am quite happy with second place.